2013 a new year of what?

As this new year has begun i am feeling incredibly heavy hearted. I am not sure what to do with all the junk in my head. I started a new business which i am incredibly excited about. my husband bought i new motorcycle that he keeps saying is for both of us but i have zero excitement about it or the investment. I started the year out 435$ in the red and a motorcycle for 21,000$ something about that sounds incredibly ridiculous! there have been deaths affecting my friends.. a grandma, a young high school boy (17), and a young man(22). Seems like an incredibly sad way to start 2013. I cant get my head out of the negative of it all. I am not sure where to go with all of this. my youth group is meeting back up on Sunday... there has been so much drama with that I am losing my momentum. I am about 34 pounds overweight and when i think about doing something about it i get incredibly hungry. ironic isnt it. i think i have an obsessive mind and i cant get it stuck on things it should be... how do i get out of this darkness in my self... how do i move forward with a good attitude when i feel like crawling under a blanket and not moving period. yes i know God is the answer. i know but how what do I do? where do i begin? how do i move on and move forward? describe me in this moment---- weak, blurry, sad, discouraged, heavy, lame, lacking, stuck, broken