It is challenging being a wife.
I want to be my husband's cheerleader, lover, support, fantasy, caregiver, listener, friend.. and the list goes on. I try to be all those things every time and all the time.
How do I balance his needs and my needs? When is it ok for me to be disappointed or angry when I am not getting my needs met? Never? Idk. Unfortunately for my husband and I, I tend to pick the WRONG time to feel that way!
As a wife, I want to feel important. I want his attention. I want to believe he is the man I think he is.
1. I want to be wanted. All the time. Not when it is convenient or annoying. I want it especially to be in front of others. Selfish, probably.
2. I want to know if I get upset he will accept that and talk about it, not in return get even more upset and then not get over it and punish me with the silent treatment and turning his back on me.
3. I want to feel like if I were to runaway, he would run after me. I unfortunately know he would not. That sucks.
4. I want to think that if I left, he would be devistated. Would he be, no. But I want him to make me think he would be.
5. I want him for once to come to me after I have first been upset. Why can't I just be allowed to get mad!? It is so unfair.
That is my rant. I have a great marriage. I have a good man for a husband. I still am a woman. I still want to feel like a top priority at times. Is it "stupid baby games," maybe, is it so hard to play the damn game once and a while to make your wife feel wanted, important? As a wife I play the damn game all the time. I try to always show support, show up, put out, be nice to everyone. Throw your wife a bone every once and a while.
End rant.
