I have been thinking about my relationships with people. Friends, family, co-workers, students...all people. I think I was created a little off. My "gift" if you will, is the ability to love. I love people. I think about people, I pray for them, I care about them. I don't really like very many people though. I'm not sure if that makes sense but I respect and love people because they are people and they have their unique and individual thinking patterns, experiences, ideas and desires. I am willing to listen and care about all people. However, letting people into the know of my life or my struggles, my beliefs, my opinions is another story. I have very few that I trust or allow to know me. I think it's because the ability to love people who think differently than you is tough and to not judge them or base your opinion of them on that is tough. You would think since I can do it, I would trust others but the truth is because I do love and listen to others, I feel they communicate very unintentionally how limited that ability is. I had someone say, "why do you keep saying you're going to miss me, you like everyone." Those moments I realize that only I know my own thoughts and feelings. "Like" everyone, no! "Love" everyone, yes. Possibly. I am thankful for my circle. I am thankful for those I can trust with my thoughts, trust with my heart, trust with my opinions. Though my inner circle is small, it is strong.
