Oh man. Here I am. 39 and trying to make a career choice. I asked God for 3 things. He provided all 3. Now I know the decision that I am going to make, yet the struggle is real. I love my current job. I LOVE my office team, I LOVE our staff. I LOVE middle school. However I LOVE my family more. I am my kids mom and much of my time is in travel, on a different time zone and disconnected from my family. My children's parents both work out of town in opposite directions.
How much is money worth? How much is time worth? What value can you place on opportunity to be active in your kids' lives? How much value goes into being in a work environment that you feel you belong? At what expense, at what cost do we make choices? Important decisions are always challenging.
The messages I have been receiving are- 1. Growth is uncomfortable but important.
2. My gifts, what I bring to the table is good enough and valuable and not in competition.
3. I can make a difference in lives wherever God opens the door.
4. When you ask for signs and they are given, just breathe and have faith.
5. The best things in life are rarely the easy things.
The tears keep rolling because I know I have to make a decision, let it be known and say goodbye or see ya later to many people that I love and appreciate and that makes me sad. I am also scared. Scared of the damn "what ifs." What if I hate it? What if I mess up on scholarship or college stuff? What if kids don't feel comfortable with me?
Change is hard, especially when it involves leaving something valuable and important behind.
