well well well

Well.... i have completely strayed from my paleo lifestyle. I started with a weight of 167 and got down to 153 in 2 1/2 weeks. Week 3... the cheating became .. norm.  My hay or outdoor allergies while on the diet were completely absent from my life. Now they have returned in full force! My headaches were NON-existent. I had 0 headaches after day 3 of the detox, now they are back. UGGGGGG! abstaining from dairy, sugar, and grains were absolutely the best thing for me... however... apparently i am a glutton for punishment and struggle to get back on that track. WHY! idk. it's easier to just stuff my face with stuff that for the moment tastes sooooo good. Anyways, i am at 157 and hope to NOT gain anymore and get back on the road of feeling well! It is worth it! i never shoulda started cheating. Bad Idea!

oh Q

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Today Q came down the hill and sees me power-washing the tractor. He says, "why's a woman doing a man's job? gimme that thing." It kinda cracked me up.

kids find the simple truths

It is Flooding disastrously in Minot ND. The other day my father-in-law and i were discussing it and my 6 year old over hears. He walks into the hallway and says, "dont worry Grandpa, the flood will end and get better. God promised to never flood the earth again. When God makes a promise he NEVER breaks it"
Proud Mama Moment

No matter how long, I miss you all the same....

Today (in 2 mins) will be my uncle's birthday. He was so much more than just an uncle to me. He was my friend, my confident, my big brother... i loved him so so so so very very much. He was THE absolute coolest person i knew. He had a jeep, a trans am, a motorcycle, was a soldier, he was absolutely amazing! He was full of life, loved driving fast, going sledding, playing charades, and just loved life. He loved to take me for rides. One time we were riding in his car and he drove 145 miles an hour! it was sooooooooooo fast! and he also loved whippin cookies! One time while giving me a ride on his motorcycle he dropped me off on the side of the road and made me walk to grandpa's cuz he thought he saw a cop (i wasnt 16 and didnt have a helmet). He died in January of 1996... 15 and half years ago.. and i still miss him like it was yesterday. Tonight I read letters we had written back and forth. I wish so much that we could continue to write those letters! He told me in those letters that no matter what, HE believed in me.  As much as I loved him he loved me. I just miss him. I just miss him so much. I wish he could have gotten to know the me that i am today. He loved me as the immature, snotty, selfish little teenager! He loved the hard to love me. I just wish he were here now. I hope that he would be proud of the woman I am today.

aly's kindergarten shots

Today we went to get aly's shots! She was soooo brave and then the girls were getting ready to give the shot and someone got a little grabby! She chickened out for a second and tried to swap the shot outta the nurse's hand! but she wasnt quick enough or sneaky enough. Needless to say she sat well and was very brave... no tears! now we are ready for school!!

my want

I wanna be a stay at home mom... a real one. I wanna be the one that stays home and bakes and reads books to her kids and goes on class trips..... ugggg. sometime i just feel like i am the farthest from that and my kids are NOT staying little.

new farm kittens

I was on the phone tonight with a lady who had 2 female kitties ready for us to take and Aly walks over to me and says, "mom is that the kitty lady" I say yes. She says "tell her i want a furry grey one with blue eyes." Unfortunately she didnt have one. Aly was so bummed and says "dangit that's my nanna's favorite"
5/17/11

my aly

today aly was eating her breakfast and says, I wanna be a horse rider when i grow up. She adds, I wonder what Que will be, maybe a hero.

just thought it was sweet! 5/11/11

my child's random comment

So the other night we were all sitting and watching a movie at my parents and Que says, "some chinese dude stole my girlfriend!" I say "what chinese dude and what girlfriend?" He responds, "oh mom it's just a figure of words."
No idea where that came from or what his "figure of words" means, but it did crack me up! He is six by the way!

mom's hot

My big kids had a sleepover at Papa and Nana's house on Easter Sunday. We got home and about an hour later I get a txt from my brother.. Aly says, I miss my mom. Uncle says, ya do you like your mom? Aly says, YA,she's my mom! My dad thinks she's hot. Uncle responds, ohh. Aly says, ya he thinks she's REALLY hot.

Did I tell that right? well it was along those lines anyhow. kinda funny or awkward or something.

What Kinda Girl I Am

I was watching Juno the other day and the dad says to his daughter, I never thought you were that kinda girl. She responds back, Ya dad I'm not sure what kinda girl I am. There's not much more of an honest answer you could give. I am 31 and I asked myself, what kinda girl am I? That was like a month ago!

So today I was driving my husband's big black loud pick up and I thought. This is the girl I am! I love big loud trucks and always have! Hearin the sound of the pipes as I rip out of a parking lot onto the highway.... LOVE IT! The other day my husband brought my Harley over for me to take for a spin. I put on my leather gloves, leather jacket, sunglasses and a hat and rode away on my steel horse! Yet again, that's the kinda girl I am! I was sitting on the rockin chair watching Carrie Underwood listen to her song Jesus Take the Wheel being song by Vince Gil and then watching her sing out with emotion How Great Thou Art and was so blessed by it! Everyday in my house is Praise and Worship music and everyday God moves in my spirit through it! That's the kinda girl I am. All three of my little ones were in their carseats in the back of the pickup and my eyes welled up with tears just seeing them and listening to them in conversation and just so proud of my babies and i love them so deeply! that's the kinda girl I am! Looking at my husband and seeing the handsome face, the soft sweet eyes of the 17 year old boy that I fell in love with 16 years ago! Watching him as he loves on my kids, loving how he tells me still I am beautiful, still getting butterflies in my tummy when he wraps me up in his arms and whispers in my ear! That's the kinda girl I am!

Two Sides to EVERY story

Actually it seems there is more than 2 sides.. there are several sides to everything. Being in business with family... many more sides to things than i can keep  up with. Business is never just business and money is the truth behind most everything that in the long run happens. At the end of the day i guess one thing does endure, family is still family. Blood is always thicker than water. SO how does one make the best decision? beats the crap outta me!

And School Board.... lalalalalalallalalallalla .... idk. there are so many sides to everyone's experience. It is super complicated. As parents we look out for the best interest of our kids and how to protect them when they grow out of our complete control. As educators we look out for the best interests of our students as a whole trying to meet the very complex variations in achievement levels. As administrators try to keep everyone accountable for providing the best education, safety, and operations of their district. As school board member..... try to keep academics the focus, providing the best opportunities for our students, opportunities for our teachers to do their job, administrators do their job, and keep things moving forward in the best possible way. We also are here to represent the public tax payers who had the faith in us to elect us and trust our judgement. UGGGGGh.

Stay at home mom.... try to keep it all together.... the family, the home, the bills, the laundry, teaching social, physical, and emotional skills, doing the best we can to try and do it all.   that's my side....

Shy or Not so Shy

The other day I was commenting to a teacher about how my lil Riy Riy is so shy and my other 2 were NEVER shy! Que overheard and corrected me saying he in fact was very shy. He was even shy last year in Kindergarten. This reminded me of occasions that may contradict.
1-A parent told me last year her son really enjoyed watching Que break dance in the front of the room!
2-At his Christmas program he was the lone student who had actions to all of the songs they sang!
3-One day I took him in a little late to class due to "not feeling well" and when we got to his class he walked in and announced to everyone he was here!
4-A teacher had him in her classroom for being "disruptive" and she asked what was going on. His response was I just have so many important things I need to tell everyone!
5-(not so funny from mom's perspective) this year the teacher had to call me and tell me that when she asked for New Year's resolution, Q raised his hand and said he was going to try and not have such stinky farts.

Pretty sure shy is NOT a word I would use to describe my little boy!

My Que is just so smart! He is witty and his little mind is always at work. He hears everything and has a perspective on all that goes on around him!
I am so very proud of him and DO NOT want to squash his spirit, compassion,or personality!

likes the computer too much?

Last night my daughter (5) was playing computer, Riy was right next to her on her chair, and I was beside him in another chair cleaning my vacuum. I turned around and within minutes of starting her game her head was on the computer hand on the mouse and she was sound asleep! I said, "hey wake up! are you done playing your game?" Her response, lifts her head 2 inches off the computer, wriggles the mouse, eyes closed, then head back down on the computer, out! 

The other simple amusement for me last night.. my 17 month old loves to chase the puppy. He just squeals he gets soooooo excited! If the puppy doesnt move he just literally dog piles on top of him until he gets up and runs and then he continues to squeal and chase!

Some Days are just Sweet!

Yesterday it was like 55 degrees! It was so beautiful! i had the best day with my husband! we rode around feeding cattle in the tractor, walked pairs out, and then went and grabbed the kids and took the 4 wheeler to pick out some cattle. It was such a wonderful day! Fresh air can be so reviving! Thank you Jesus for the beautiful days!

couple quick stories..

So my Que is the sweetest 1st grader ever! I was trying on some bright red lipstick and said, hey come here a quick minute and i gave him a bright red kiss on his cheek! so he goes to check it out in the mirror and wipes it off saying GROSS MOM! i didnt pay attention to how well he wiped it off. So the next day he comes home from school and i say.. Q you still have a kiss on you! He responds.. YA MOM THINK THATS EMBARRASSING!!!

Last night we were watching EllisMania and Uriyah was loving it! he would point at the tv, yell mom, then make a little fist and punch me! he smiled the whole way through the show and watched it intensely!! I am a bit nervous boxing just might be in his future somewhere!

baking... my cure all

I love to bake. I can make chocolate chip cookies 3x a week and not be bored of it. I can bake early in the morning, lunchtime, afternoon, evening whenever! Tonight for example it was quarter after 11pm. I enjoy it because no matter what recipe you try or how you mix and match if you put some effort into it, it will workout. Something very soothing about that. I like to bake when  I am happy, sad, busy, mad, bored, stressed, getting ready for company, wishing I had company, really anytime! I think it's nice when the world or life seems distasteful you can create something tasty!

Justin Bieber - Baby ft. Ludacris

watching
Watching This Video, My 6 year old Que says .. Hey that looks like Ben (my 21yr brother) only a little smaller! That's funny!

sometimes i set myself up....

So Riy Riy decided to dump a box of cereal on the floor the other day.. annoying! so today he got into the cereal cupboard again and was trying eat it out of the box. I thought to myself.. ok i dont want another repeat of the other day soo.... So I poured a bit of cereal in a little bowl and gave it to him (not in his high chair, intelligent). He was content and began stickin his lil fingers in and eating it. I walked out of the room and heard the sound of cereal being dumped. So i went in the kitchen and sure enough it's on the floor. So i go grab the vacuum and being to vacuum it up. Uriyah gets upset and starts yelling.. HEY HEY at me ... apparently he put it on the floor so he could eat it up off the floor. Nice. Why does that amuse me???????

funny what a date can be...

So today my husband and I ventured off with no kids to enjoy a day together.. what you might ask does this sort of "date" consist of... running errands, of course Walmart, cellphone store, and without a doubt a BULL SALE! yes it was a wonderful day that would be summed up as our HOT DATE! oh and yes we did do some fine dining as well both lunch and dinner.. did i mention child free! (well i guess my brother josh was there for some of lunch) but it was such a wonderful day! the simple pleasures of just being together.... hm.. random?

Billionaire...

Last night Josh and Que were on a dinner date at Perkins. They were waiting for their food when Que lights up and says Dad, I got an idea... Let's save all our Money so we can become Billionaires!

Pretty Great Idea!!

sometimes in the quiet we realize a blessing..

This morning it was 8:45am and all of a sudden a realization of what I was doing hit me. My house was quiet in the background I could softly hear Christian music coming from my kids' room and across my chest and body wide awake but calm and relaxed was my 16 month old in his diaper. I was reclined back and bit, rocking him softly, and lightly rubbing my hand across his back. I find myself close to tearing up! I am so blessed to have the opportunity to just sit and hold my little boy... no rushing to daycare or work or obsessing over the clutter scattered around or anything else. Just blessed to be able to take those quiet moments with my little boy who is growing much quicker than I like to admit! Sometimes it is very easy for me to forget the blessing of being a mom who gets to stay home. Thank you Jesus for the quiet moments when we realize how good you are!

*side note- he did greet me at the top of the stairs in the buff! diaper laying in the hallway, luckily had a full diaper and not a wet spot on the carpet! oh how i love when they learn how to take their diaper off*
i am not saying anything to hurt or offend working moms by any means! i find myself wanting to work and have that instead of enjoying this opportunity while i have it.

Back to the Bucket List

So .. what I'm thinking is ..
1) getting a normal bedtime for all 3 of my children! as type i look over and see my 16 month old has climbed up on a stool and reached his grubby little paws into the center of a pan of brownies!
2) visit Venice
3)stay in a romantic resort with my husband
3)start a non-profit organization or develop something for teen-age or single pregnant moms
4)take my kids to disneyland or disney world
5)go on a best friend all inclusive spa luxury getaway
6)lose 25 pounds in a healthy purposeful way....

i am gonna have to keep thinkin...

I am thinkin ... bucket list

I keep thinkin about a friend of mine saying.. "we just don't fit in"... I dont really fit anywhere.. but I am good with that. I dont really fit  into a type or a mold. In Juno the teenage girl's dad says, I didnt think you were that kinda girl, her response, "dad i dont really know what kinda girl I am." I totally get that .. only she is 17 and in a movie and I am 31 in real life! UGGGGG so in thinkin about all the ways I dont fit anywhere, I began thinkin.. i should start a bucket list....

World Premiere of Jimmy Needham's Firefly

Continuing my Morning..

My son has come up with some sniffles but looking rather well.. So I ask, are you ready to go to school. His answer, "No mom remember I am sick, but I dont have RSP." I correct him and say I think you do have RSV, but in turn he says whatever mom, I dont have it just a runny nose, but can I go outside for some fresh air or can I please play computer? I say no it is ugly outside (wind, cold, flurries) and no computer, now do you wanna go to school? But he still says no, so I am keeping him home... Good Answer, right? idk

Just another morning....

How do you know when to send your kids too school? This is a question I seem to ask myself more than most do! My pet peeve is sending sick kids to school to breathe, cough, and touch on healthy kids! So I possibly over cautiously keep them home when they are coughing, sneezing, runny nosing or if they flat out say they just don't feel well.  So as I ponder this morning ... my house is quiet of sleeping children at 8:30am on a Monday morning and I don't feel too bad for making the choice I did!
*side note one child for sure has RSV and my smartness would lead me to say they all do*
 Now my favorite thing about quiet mornings... coffee, praise and worship music, and reading the bible! Love it!
The not so quiet is for some reason I thought I needed a puppy.. He is cute but LOVES to bark and fight with my big dog. Oh and also chew on everything.. so in the back ground i hear the raw sound of teeth slipping on plastic or wood.... But it's all good. I have a gift of being able to tune out most noise! And obviously taking time on the computer which usually distracts me from my direct plan of coffee and devotions.  hmm... not proud to admit.
and now i hear my toddler fussin..... so my random life online will have to continue on .. later.