No matter how long, I miss you all the same....

Today (in 2 mins) will be my uncle's birthday. He was so much more than just an uncle to me. He was my friend, my confident, my big brother... i loved him so so so so very very much. He was THE absolute coolest person i knew. He had a jeep, a trans am, a motorcycle, was a soldier, he was absolutely amazing! He was full of life, loved driving fast, going sledding, playing charades, and just loved life. He loved to take me for rides. One time we were riding in his car and he drove 145 miles an hour! it was sooooooooooo fast! and he also loved whippin cookies! One time while giving me a ride on his motorcycle he dropped me off on the side of the road and made me walk to grandpa's cuz he thought he saw a cop (i wasnt 16 and didnt have a helmet). He died in January of 1996... 15 and half years ago.. and i still miss him like it was yesterday. Tonight I read letters we had written back and forth. I wish so much that we could continue to write those letters! He told me in those letters that no matter what, HE believed in me.  As much as I loved him he loved me. I just miss him. I just miss him so much. I wish he could have gotten to know the me that i am today. He loved me as the immature, snotty, selfish little teenager! He loved the hard to love me. I just wish he were here now. I hope that he would be proud of the woman I am today.